寫日記成為我的習慣。寫了十三年，珍藏了十多本大大小小，琳琅滿目的日記本。十年前從香港到美國，直到現在，我堅持寫繁體中文，因為我不想忘記我的根源及文化。我愛我土生土長的，博大精深的中華文化！
手寫日記的好處是能記錄自己當時的心情及得著。手寫字體會隨著心境而改變，心情好時會寫得整齊點，心情不好的話，字體就像打風般東歪西倒。幾經風霜後，再回顧細味自己的成長心路歷程，是多麼美妙的事！每次我一遇到難關，就會記下一點一滴的回憶，和自己聊天，不經不覺就能自我調解，身心舒𣈱。
人的自重感真大啊！每個人都希望被重視，被關注，被尊重。其實，我們自身就是自己最佳的信徒，觀眾，及讀者。我來做個實驗吧，當被指責時，你的第一反應是恨對方，想回激對方, 還是保持沈默？我會嘗試抽離角色，把自己看成別人，心平氣和地去思考如何解決問題，提出建議。這比漫罵及問責來得有意義。我反對暴力，剝削，和剛愎自用。
我不怕一个人，我只怕痛及冷 :P 所以小時候的我會出盡全力鑽到桌下，為的是避開醫生替我打針；到十九歳才敢穿耳洞；也盡量避免刻骨銘心又爛尾的愛情，減少心痛的次數。我對經歷十級痛而誕下親生骨肉的偉大母親們，佩服得五體投地。
因為怕冷，我會在家冬眠，在溫暖的被窩裏策劃著未來。睡覺是我的本領，基本上任何狀況我都能熟睡。睡覺既能養顏，又能消愁，何樂而不為？除非枕邊人的咕嚕聲太大，或當天喝了咖啡因，我才會睡不著，要起床活動看書直到睏為止。
生活上仍有很多人事物令我百思不得其解，但我的好奇心是源源不絕的。只有抱着這顆歷奇之心，才讓我對明天感到有希望和趣味！活到老學到老。
Keeping a diary becomes my habit. After writing for more than 13 years, I have collected more than ten large and small diaries. Ten years ago moving from Hong Kong to the United States, until now, I insist on writing Traditional Chinese, because I do not want to forget my root and culture. I love my native Cantonese culture, broad and profound!
The advantage of a handwritten diary is that you can record your mood at the time and get inspirations from it. The handwriting font will change with the mood. When you are in a good mood, you will write it neatly. If you are in a bad mood, the font will be messy like a storm. After many winds and frosts, it is so wonderful to look back at your own growth journey! Every time I encounter difficulties, I will write down my memories one by one, chat with myself, and I can mediate myself without even knowing it.
The sense of self-respect is so great! Everyone wants to be valued, paid attention, and respected. In fact, we ourselves are our best believers, viewers, and readers. Let me do an experiment. When you are accused by others, your first reaction is to hate the other party, want to repel the other party, or remain silent? I will try to pull away from the role, treat myself as someone else, calmly think about how to solve the problem, and make suggestions. This is more meaningful than scolding about accountability. I oppose violence, exploitation, and arrogance.
I’m not afraid of being alone, I ’m only afraid of pain and cold though (: P) For examples, when I was young, I would do my best to drill and hide under the table, in order to avoid the doctor to give me a painful injection; I waited to get the “achy”ear piercing until 19 years old; to reduce the number of heartaches from bad results, I tried to avoid input too much effort into loving relationships. I admire the great mothers who gave birth to their own flesh and blood babies after experiencing ten levels of pain.
As for preventing the cold, I would hibernate at home and plan the future in the warm bed. Sleeping is my skill, basically I can sleep soundly in any situation. Sleeping can improve beauty and relieve worries, why not do it more? Unless there’s loud gurgling of the person next to my pillow, or I drink caffeine that day, I will not be able to fall asleep and will have to wake up and read until I am sleepy.
There are still many people and things in life that puzzle me, but my curiosity is endless. Only holding this adventure heart makes me feel hopeful and interesting for tomorrow! Live and learn.
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